Hot In Herre

Last week we experienced a heatwave which felt like a ton of hot bricks overnight. It was highs of 90 to 100 degrees and when you live in San Francisco for over 20 years you become, basically unable to handle weather too hot or too cold. It was so hot I really couldn’t get anything done!  I was working on patterns and kept sticking to the paper sweating all over the place.  I finally surrendered.

All I wanted to do was lie on the floor in corpse pose until the heat broke.  I decided it was the perfect time to shoot my bodysuit.  What’s great about this piece is it can also double as a bathing suit because, of the poly spandex material.  If I had to wear clothes this was about all I could muster up the strength to wear.

I continue to push my boundaries and practice self-love every day.  It’s not every moment of everyday but, every day.  Years ago, I put on a lot of extra weight I call them the dark years.  I was struggling with where I was in life at the time, stuck in a cubicle dredging the 9-5 life.  Working really hard to pay the bills, doing something I knew was not my true purpose.  Food has always been a source of coping for me and when I felt weighed down by life I would snack.

I have always been an athlete and loved using my body to exert and gain energy.  It was a struggle when I realized because, of the weight I couldn’t use my body the same way.  The physical activities that were once easy to do felt damn near impossible.  I felt as though I was starting over from fitness scratch. 

Most people think that weight gain and loss is strictly calories in calories out which from a biological standpoint it is.  For me it is all about the state of my mental health and well-being.  I was never ignorant of knowing how to fuel my body and take care of it.  Once your mind is on the healing track the physical part all falls into place. In order to achieve anything in this world it takes both the mind and body.  We really can’t have balance with one and not the other.  I found it to be an interesting process to love and be thankful for my body whilst wanting to change and improve it.

I have moments where I am impatient with myself and think ten more pounds and this will be gone and not taking the time to be grateful for my body in the present moment.  I have named my ego Cruella.  It makes it easier for me to confront the fear head on in the moment.  I literally ask myself is this Cruella or is this my soul?  I have found it makes it much easier generally in life to do this.  Allows me to be present and in a place of love instead of fear.Last week we experienced a heatwave which felt like a ton of hot bricks overnight. It was highs of 90 to 100 degrees and when you live in San Francisco for over 20 years you become, basically unable to handle weather too hot or too cold. It was so hot I really couldn’t get anything done!  I was working on patterns and kept sticking to the paper sweating all over the place.  I finally surrendered.

All I wanted to do was lie on the floor in corpse pose until the heat broke.  I decided it was the perfect time to shoot my bodysuit.  What’s great about this piece is it can also double as a bathing suit because, of the poly spandex material.  If I had to wear clothes this was about all I could muster up the strength to wear.

I continue to push my boundaries and practice self-love every day.  It’s not every moment of everyday but, every day.  Years ago, I put on a lot of extra weight I call them the dark years.  I was struggling with where I was in life at the time, stuck in a cubicle dredging the 9-5 life.  Working really hard to pay the bills, doing something I knew was not my true purpose.  Food has always been a source of coping for me and when I felt weighed down by life I would snack.

I have always been an athlete and loved using my body to exert and gain energy.  It was a struggle when I realized because, of the weight I couldn’t use my body the same way.  The physical activities that were once easy to do felt damn near impossible.  I felt as though I was starting over from fitness scratch. 

Most people think that weight gain and loss is strictly calories in calories out which from a biological standpoint it is.  For me it is all about the state of my mental health and well-being.  I was never ignorant of knowing how to fuel my body and take care of it.  Once your mind is on the healing track the physical part all falls into place. In order to achieve anything in this world it takes both the mind and body.  We really can’t have balance with one and not the other.  I found it to be an interesting process to love and be thankful for my body whilst wanting to change and improve it.

I have moments where I am impatient with myself and think ten more pounds and this will be gone without taking the time to be grateful and celebrate how strong my body in the present moment.  I have named my ego Cruella.  It makes it easier for me to confront the fear head on in the moment.  I literally ask myself is this Cruella or is this my soul?  I have found it makes it much easier generally in life to do this.  Allows me to be present and in a place of love instead of fear.